Just when the Gopis thought in the Rasa dance, Krishna is under our control…whoosh He was gone. That is the nature of devotional service. One can never ever think:
“Now I have surrendered, now I have made it, now I have made it.”
In this world it is like that:
‘I’ve worked hard, now I’m rich I’ve made it and now all I have do is get fat and sit back!”…
No, it’s not like that in spiritual life. One has to again and again conquer the heart of Krishna. That is the secret of devotional service and that is what we really see in these pastimes and that is what we can take out of it and we can realise for ourselves on our own level – we are not on the level of the eternal residents but on our own level, we also have to again and again conquer Krishna. Everyday again, Every time again.
Sometime after we have done our best and served Krishna to our best ability, Krishna may bestow some mercy upon us and we actually feel something extraordinary and we are really inspired and we reay feel Krishna is very close, but after a little while He is then so far away…and then we are suprised, we ask:
‘How is it that He was so close to me and now so far from me?”
It is amazing how that happens to us- and then we have to conquer Him again – again we have to conquer Him again and again.
No one can take Krishna for granted.
(Kadamba Kanana Swami, Lenasia , Radhastami 2010)