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In Caitanya Caritamrta it is said that one must accept Lord Caitanya in the innermost chambers of his heart. Our heart can be compared with palace with many rooms…In the centre of the palace are the private chambers. There we have our hidden life, the private life, there we keep our hidden separate desires. It is a big challange to really give that one to Krsna also. As long we have any hidden separate desires we will still have that private chamber which is locked so that Krsna can’t get in…
So it is the private chamber we have to open for Krsna and that is difficult.
In the begining of the proces we have to fight with our mind and senses. It is a big fight, but we must do it – And then, there is a fight to carry on in devotional service. That is also the tough one. But the ultimate fight is is to open up the private chamber. That is the biggest fight and to give that chamber to Krsna and to say:
‘You do with it whatever You like, Krsna. I am Your puppet. I will dance just as You like.’
Transcribed by Savitri Devi Dasi
(Kadamba Kanana Swami, Serbian Summer Camp, 2009)