(Kadamba Kanana Swami, 7 May 2013, Simhachalam, Germany, Srimad Bhagavatam 9.6.41-42)
If we don’t get absorbed in the sankirtan spirit, we may still remain very self-centred because we are so fallen. If we’re self-centred then the desire for self-aggrandizement, for our own glories will remain, which is a subtle form of sex desire, pratiṣṭhā. So this pratiṣṭhā – the desire for recognition – is particularly difficult.
It is very difficult to deal with. Very subtle. Very hard to overcome. But if we just work hard and take austerities in preaching and in other services, then eventually we can overcome it.
In time, Krsna arranges life in such a way that this pratiṣṭhā gets dealt with because when you are a kid, you’re always hankering, “If only I was old enough then I can do it myself”. And finally, you get your chance, you’re at the peak of your glory and then you start to lose it all. You have to witness how you lose your power and that is painful. You lose your glory!
Life is set up like that. It’s painful to get old to see that you’re losing it and you’re very much aware of it. So in this way, gradually, punar müñiko bhava, be a mouse again. You’ve heard that story of being a mouse again? So life is about punar müñiko bhava, about becoming a mouse again. Everyone in life growing up to the point of being a tiger and then again becomes a mouse. Time is doing it. So this pratiṣṭhā is there. When we start to think more and more of others and get really busy with that, then it will help.