(Kadamba Kanana Swami, 11 September 2013, Durban, South Africa, Srimad Bhagavatam 1.3.38)
One who remembers Krsna all the time becomes captured by Krsna. Krsna slowly captures us. It is said: jayati jananivaso devaki-janma-vado (SB 10.90.48). Jananivaso or Jananivasa is speaking about Krsna who is the resort, or shelter, of all living beings. Jayati means he conquers or it means ‘victory’.
It is described by Srila Visvanatha Chakravati Thakur, in the commentary of that verse, that jayati is in the present tense and it means that Krsna is victorious. Not like he will be victorious or we hope that Krsna will conquer our heart. No, he is conquering right now. Basically what it means is that Krsna is penetrating into our consciousness even though we are conditioned souls and we are reluctant. It doesn’t matter how much tilak we put, how big the neck beads are; it doesn’t matter whether we live in a temple; it doesn’t matter even if we are bramachari for ninety-nine years, still we don’t want to surrender. There is a portion in us that does not want to, it is resisting; there is reluctance in us. And no matter how devotional we fold our hands, still we don’t want. We want to keep independence, we want to enjoy. That tendency is very strong.
It does not matter because by associating with Krsna, Krsna is victorious, says Srila Visvanatha Chakravati Thakur. He is victorious now. So, whenever we are associating with Krsna, he is penetrating and there is no false ego. Although the false ego is like a wall, a high wall which is so thick that the Chinese Wall looks like nothing; and nothing seems to go through that wall of false ego, except for Krsna. For Krsna it is nothing, he penetrates into our hearts and our consciousness.