(Kadamba Kanana Swami, 15 March 2014, Melbourne, Australia, Srimad Bhagavatam 2.7.47)
Vaikuntha, the spiritual world, is an abode that is free from anxiety. But as soon as you turn away from Krsna, there is anxiety. Anxiety begins immediately because you don’t know what is going to happen, you have no idea. Anything can happen, at any moment. I have experienced it.
The strangest thing that has happened to me: I was in a room and suddenly at 6am, I heard banging on the wall and it was as if someone was attacking the wall with a sledge hammer, and I was like, “What is going on?! Is someone coming through the wall?!” It was sort of scary! Who could that be?! And the next moment, there was a crack in the wall coming down right to the floor and the floor cracked right open, and all the tiles stood up! You cannot imagine!
I did not know that I could fly but I could. I flew and not only that but I grabbed my computer, my everything and flew out of the room with all my valuables – within less than 20 seconds, I was out! It is the last thing you would expect, that the floor cracks open. You would read it in some sort of horror story or some science fiction story; things like that don’t happen in real life. But I tell you, they do! You would be surprised, but it does happen. The unexpected can happen and therefore there is a reason to be in anxiety, “O my God, what is going to happen?!” Anxiety!
One writer was making a list of things that caused anxiety, it said, “The tax men, the government, rats, spiders…” A long list, right! In the end, at the bottom of the list it said, “Everything!” It was an honest list as everything can cause anxiety, “O my God, bite your nails! Exams, the boss.. Ahhh! So many things, endless causes for anxiety.” It is because we are separated from Krsna. One who is with Krsna is completely free from anxiety. So this is something inconceivable, very difficult to comprehend for us – a life without anxiety.